When I posted ‘Felinity’, I did so for two reasons. Firstly, as I said, because I found it to be a beautiful and intriguing dream. Secondly, because I wanted to know how people would interpret it.
And interpret it, you did! One of these interpretations has prompted me to clarify some things about the dream, and possibly about dreams in general.
There are many theories about dreams. Many people think that dreams can tell us things about the future, or about ourselves. Other people think that our dreams are our greatest desires or our biggest fears. On the same lines as that, still others think that dreams are our minds ‘testing out’ our reactions to situations.
Since this is a continuation (of sorts) of a piece about my dreams, I will tell you what I think.
I think that dreams are a big mixture of all these things. We’ve all had déjà vu, and most of us have been able to find out things about ourselves from dreams. We have nightmares and happy dreams, and every manner of weird things in between.
So if I may analyze myself a bit, I’ll delve into this bit.
‘Felinity’ was, in part, a desire dream. Yes, it’s true. But not that I desire this particular person. Rather, I desire to have this sort of unity. Unity, play, and body language are very important to a wolf, you see. We (if you’ll excuse the usage of the word) need that unity, to remain as a pack. We need play to stimulate our minds. And body language is a big portion of our communication.
As I have said previously, in another area, I would like to venture to say that perhaps the reason this particular boy was featured in my dream was in response to my distaste for him. It seems to me that my mind was clearly telling me not to judge so harshly for a few rude words. And to show me an image of happily playing with the fellow (especially with the fellow while portrayed as an animal) would be a good way to communicate that to me, would it not?
While this may be a little confusing, and I might be digging my hole deeper than I am digging myself out, I hope I made myself a little clearer. I am not in any way attracted to this fellow. Rather, I am attracted to a feeling of complete trust, a feeling like I truly belong and make sense, a feeling that I am the same and equal, and a feeling that I can be myself.
I’m sorry, that sounds harsh. It’s not that I don’t ever feel any of those things; it’s that they’re the kind of feelings that make you feel so good that you can never have enough of them.
Canis Sapiens 